Another rant Politics

Politics You might not know this about me , but I am a independent libertarian. Some one that believes in limited government and freedom to choose who has the best ideas, left right or other. I use to be a hater of illegal workers.but b4 I disliked the thought of them taking American jobs, I disliked that the government did not do the jobs of inforcing the laws of deporting them.Or punishing those who benifited from the low cost labor. I felt it was all treason, to take jobs away from Americans to give to some one that if they had a child here would now have a legal reason for being here, now funded as living poor in titled to goverment help. The problem became horrendous! You can't ask someone to self deport when their children are legal American citizens. Today I see things differently,being independent & libertarian means you assume everyone should follow laws. For better or worse, people should be responsible to see the whole picture,not the quick buck. Higher a veteran, higher a ex-con. pay well,reward your employees regularly,more if they are great! 2 Facts:The "Mexican" wants a better life, the united states offers it! People will keep highering them.because they are NEEDED, so accept them! (landscapers,homebuilders,barn help,farmers,cooks) (But please stop asking if I speak English at the ATM) Rules and laws will change! accept that too,because we can't afford it, any of it! Schools,welfare,housing,healthcare,ect. While we try to fund some things others are failing, water mains built in the 40's,bridges,roads. And the answer is not to pay less,or stop unions,while CEO take Hugh profits and forgot who got them there. If we are the leaders,then we need to focus on the big picture. Example in Europe countries that have a lot of snow,don't suffer power outages as their power is underground. Hurricans are not suppose to be a way for electric companies to make money! Means we wouldn't have to budget for it, like we do now. Lots of those things that would make us efficient. Because my moral high horse is not reality. You might ask why vent this,because it matters.

Today is my birthday...they say it's

Well actually, my birthday was a few hours ago.

I turned 40. My husband travels for work, he is gone today. My boys are 7 & 11. No card, no song, no cake. One day after New Years, and I'm putting away the Christmas decoration by myself.
I try so hard, to make sure everyone feels important, in their moment. What if I don't ?
Several people around me are capricorns,practical people.
I watch them "post" in this electronic age. And I wonder, is it true? Did every one have a great day?
What makes one person marry someone, that everyone thinks the world of them! Gift from the in laws on birthdays!
I can't get a card from my kids or husband.
I feel so invisible.
What makes one person seem so loved, and special, cared for and by. And others so independently alone.
I have a friend that feels miserably guilty for not being happy in her marriage, while others are starving or dyeing. What is the common denominator between those of us that never get respect we desire, and those who do?

Sacrafice and meadiation

Sometimes I find in all the hubbub of life , I find myself lost.
Why is it so easy for some of us to be codependent, to want to give so much up, of ourselves to all the other needs of the world around us.
Thank God I took a class! But even that seems to feel like, how dare I take time for me.
What might happen if I stop doing for others, even if I'm just doing laundry?
It is mandatory to give in to ourselves, we deserve it! And if we don't take a moment to say "this is important to me" one might loose their mind.
So this year, make a change, invest a little in yourself.
We deserve it!

Brand New Year...

So long 2011! Looking forward to a brighter 2012.
Tomorrow I turn 40, just did not think I would be here. Heck Nostrodumas messed up my plans! 1999 was his first rerun of the "End of the World" no college for me ..why pay for that and die.
Now I'm 40... Don't believe all you hear.
Last night I took my family to the Baba center for the New Years Celebration
There celebration includes a square dance. It was fun, very crowded,and the young people try to change the callers directions in to a jitterbug ,swing mash pit.
Evolution?
I always knew I was never alone, but the face of religions offers many variation of the face of God.
I love visiting different churches, to see faith threw different eyes. Baba seems loving and inviting. I freaquint a charismatic church also, when I need to "soak" in the spirit, drums do that. Ignite speeks to me a lot.
So faith guides me. Or is it inner knowing, if we are made in Gods image, then God wishes to have us see him, within ourselves. And to trust in ourselves as we search to trust in him. We need not search for him so hard, for he lives within all of us. It is the truth in knowing ourselves, and positive light, love, and acts, that we live with in him and him within us.

Growing up Jersey~Detroit

I notice I am getting a little slow, as I get older memories seem so far away.
Recently, chatting among friends we were reminiscing about our young adult music and television experiences. I knew I had plenty of experiences, but couldn't remember which came 1st and when?
So I stayed quiet, I didn't want to seem like I was bragging, or that I had no other life. It just seemed strange, to stay so quiet.The moment passed.
I love living here in the south, mostly because of the lack of snow. And down here people don't mind sharing there Bibles with you. But I like to tell my neighbors, if you ask me to come to your church, you are asking me to share my truths of God with you. So be careful what you ask for,and prepared to get schooled.
So
When I was young, I did not care for living in the suburbs of Detroit.I did not see it's value as I do now looking back. My parents met at Weehawken HS in NJ close to Hoboken. I grew up with my religious values from my very Catholic Grandmother that bestowed enough catholic guilt into my bones to be afraid of my shadow. 4th of July was always great at Grandmas, overlooking the Hudson River watching fireworks with the Empire state building winking back at you.
All the Guido boys were around, and we were all Jersey Girls. 
From A Feast and fresh food markets, culture was rich.

In Michigan I never understood how my family got so far removed from NJ? That was our family?
In Novi aka No. 6 train station. We had 7 acres of farm land, corn fields fresh air.
Very pretty, Very Quiet.
And Lots of SNOW a great place to learn how to drive!

Thankfully my 1st real boyfriend Mike,( I was 16.) Mike was a music nut and a drummer! And a nice Reliable Capricorn, just like me! We loved independent music. We both wanted to go to Ca. as soon as we could, we just never did. Mike was a couple years older than me so when he was 18 he started going to Shows, at Harpos, Blondies, CBGbS? He was a Glam band man!  And I got to buy his Clothes and Dye his Hair!
I was not old enough to go with him, and we broke up by the time I could.
I loved Novi Now! Only 30 minutes to all the shows! Pine Knob ! Canada! Ann Arbor!the Blind Pig Clutch Cargos, St Andrews! The Shelter! 3 floor of h....aka Fun! The Velvet lounge, The Phoenix amphitheater! Royal Oak Majic bag! The State Theater Monday nights at the movies! !
My Safety mentality started quick, driving late on the weekends and clubbing alone. In the door by 11 out by 1:30 No reason to be on the roads with all the drinkers.
Ive seen so many shows, I cant remember them all. You go often, make friends that work the door. I think Deborah Harry at Blondies (lol)was my 1st show. Peter Grabrial life size at Silverdome , Maddona on her worst show, her dad was there...waste of $.Violent fems and Psychedelic Furs, Cindy Lauper, the Hulk, and Capt Lu! Too Bad religion & Green day.  The only show I did not see, was EMINM he was at the Shelter, singing a lot and I did not want to see some wigger on Rap night. He was always around, my loss.
From the Renaissance Festivals, and Music in Detroit, To Hines Park and Woodward Dream Cruise and even a Second City too!
I would Not have Changed a thing !

Another hurdel in a Small world continued

One week later:
The dogs are loose! God bless'em,  I'm pretty sure it had nothing to do with the neighbor. (I had a flat tier that morning and I might have left the gate unlocked tying to get to tiertown) Thankfully the neighbor that lives across the street who face my home, and can see everything all the time, loves my kids and dogs! So she called me while I was in line to pick up the kids at school, she got Sargy, my bull dog happy to go back inside. My dingy pitbull Alexa is running everywhere. Oh no the pitbull! Sadly is the type of dog that wets herself, if you try to pet her. She dose no justice for the breed. I have to understand that everyone sees her is nervous, that comes with the breed too.

Anyway, I was truly very grateful to have a neighbor that got off her keaster to rescue my dogs. She looked and looked, I could heard the people on the phone complaining about a loose dog.  But My neighbor found Alexa at another neighbors 3 doors down, they put Alexa in their back yard where the fence was 3' tall,  Alexa could have easily hoped over it. All in all an Hour had past, and I apologized a lot. I wanted to make it up to them even if they had called animal control. I wanted to show I appreciated they did something to keep my dogs safe. So I wanted to treat them like rockstars, I got them each a cookie plate from Croissants. And to the parents of the neighbor who called me, and all her help a pound cake, cause the raise a great daughter of 50 years.(age is only a state of mind)   Random acts of kindness should not go unnoticed and maybe next time they might not call animal control. I hope their is no next time.

Another hurdel in a Small world

So I have 2 amazing boy! No mater who they might grow up to be, I will smuggle a file in if necessary.

  My youngest Noah is 6 and Lars is 10. The 1st thing I learned after having Lars was 1, my life was over in favor of his. Then second when ones child bumps their head for the 1st time, bleeding out is good! You will freak out the 1st time this happens.
Noah is a treat and at 18 months he stopped walking, talking, and touching food to eat were done. For some reason my baby just stopped being himself, After a few doctors visits to find out how do I get him to eat (thank God for Vitamin shakes) Noah has Autism. Life changing event, but you deal with it expert by expert, day by day.
I am not a southern born girl, but I like the thought of hospitality being a southern thing, so I told My "friendly  neighbors" about Noah.  That if they ever see him out alone please stop him. Unfortunately this must of translated to: She must be a lazy mom that refuses to use a switch to discipline her boys,.  and they are not my problem. A couple of police calls later and a beautiful 6' fence solved most of the issues. Recently at Thanksgiving  the not so friendly neighbors kid came from out of town. They came over to say hi. They introduce their 3yo son to my boys, and said her Father had never met her son, because he had mental issues. I then hug her for confirming my thoughts.  And explained to her I had always found it odd that since she was born with not having an arm how her father could be so non understanding about my sons learning delay. Then I told her I keep and eye on her Grand dad, cause I had realizes her Grand Dad was no different than me, one day I might be just like him.
She smiled knowing some one looks out for Grand dad... and then offered me a piece of advice, not to leave my dogs unlocked of my yard as her dad would free them.

To be continued: